The Move [ Part 1 ]

August 17th was moving day. It was the night of August 15th when the phone call came. I missed it, but my future roomy's voice sounded both calm and confused on my voicemail.


"Hey Ellie, this is Ruth. I was just calling because I talked to Kjersten tonight, and she just found out that Focus is letting go of the apartment...so if we are going to live in it, we will have to pay full rent on it and utilities. I don't know if you'd still want to live together, but I would love to. I don't think I can afford the apartment though.  Do you have any ideas? Okay, call me when you can. Bye Ellie!"


Panic raced through me as I listened to Ruth's sweet voice on the other end of the line. Oh my gosh. OH MY GOSH. What do I do? I can't just drive twelve hundred miles without knowing if I have a place to live! Ellie, be calm. Do not worry. I'm taking care of it. Go tell your parents. The still, small voice was clear. I took a deep breath, and in flowed peace. 

I knew that in order to tell my parents, I was going to have to be completely calm and at peace with this huge change of plans. I got on my knees and held out my hands and prayed, asking the Lord for complete and utter stillness within me...complete faith in His plan.

“Clarity is the last thing you are clinging to and must let go of...I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust. So I will pray that you will trust God” [ Mother Teresa ].


“We ourselves have known and put our trust in God’s love toward ourselves” [ 1 John 4:16 ].


"Craving clarity, we attempt to eliminate the risk of trusting God. Fear of the unknown path stretching ahead of us destroys childlike trust in the Father’s active goodness and unrestricted love" [ Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning ].


[ pictures are from pinterest ].